so your senior year in high school you have senior standouts. while talking to miranda today i came to the conclusion: if there was a “WEIRDEST girl ever” award or a “too bold/outgoing” award, i would definitely win it. nobody takes me seriously. so does that mean i need to change? i realized today that some of the things i say to people are so bold that they just dont even understand what to do with themselves. its weird. a friend of mine jake once told me that i will never have a boyfriend and even if i did nobody would ever believe me. why? because nobody ever takes me seriously. and for a long time i thought it was just him being mean but it makes so much sense. thank God i have 4 more years to be so weird before the real world comes and bites me in the ass. i should probably take a minute to think about what i say before i say it from now on. especially with adults. i guess its bad to be funny 99% of the time with them? aj;sdkfja;sdkfj epiphany status.
i love days like today. just driving with some of my friends up to vantage pointe. just sitting talking about random shit. bonding. id rather do stuff like that than party. i love guy friends way more than girls. even little things like that can totally make my day.
So its my last day of spring break of my senior year in high school and its so weird. I didn’t do one BIG thing this break, and yet I still had so much fun. Just hanging out at home with my bestfriend Miranda 70 percent of the time. Laughing about all the extremely dumb shit we do together. Realizing were REALLY weird and wondering how we have friends & so many people who like us because of how weird we truly are. Wondering how Sally puts up with so much of our shit. Thanking God we found each other & put all that shit behind us from years past to finally become such great freinds. I honestly love my friends sally & miranda idk what I’d do without them. I’ve also realized that even though I’m having fun I’m not as happy as I could be. I need to settle down. But I only have 2 months left so I’m using that excuse. Idk why but I just can’t get myself to actually trust a boy completely. Hopefully one day I will